Hey there. How are you? Yea it has been awhile. You look great…. how have you been? I’ve been good I guess. Busy, yea I’ve been busy. Sorry I haven’t been around much but you know how life can get sometimes, right? Oh you are calling BS on the whole busy thing? You want to know why I won’t look you in the eye while saying things are good. well…. uummm… hhmmmmm….
Ok truthfully things aren’t bad I just don’t do this time of year well. I tend to get quite and withdraw a bit. I have had a hard time coming up with things to say. I want to be clever and witty. Not blah, and well… boring. This is not my journal where I write about what I ate for dinner and how early I went to bed and why am I so freaking tired? This isn’t where I write budgets and lists of Christmas gift ideas. This is my blog.
This is the place where I am supposed to share all the wonderful truths I stumble across on my journey. This is where I share with you, my friends, the things that inspire me. Music, poetry, art, quotes, words of inspiration. My days should be filled with these things. But it seems they are not. I am not unhappy. I am not sitting around miserable. I am just internalizing. And that is the trouble with blogging. Deciding what to share. Knowing when you have a post and when you don’t. Learning to find the discipline to do it even when the feeling isn’t there. The “Ah-ha!” posts are always brilliant and there is an eagerness to push the publish button. I feel like the geek in ‘The Breakfast Club” when he finishes the essay and punches himself in the arm as a kudos to himself. But there are also those posts where dread fills my heart and I want to delete the post. Or the times when I stare at the computer screen for 20 minutes and then shut WordPress down because I haven’t typed one word.
OK I do have something to share. I have been reading “Tuesdays with Morrie” by Mitch Albom. It is really inspiring and deep and thought provoking. I want to do a post about it once I am finished. I know this is a book I will read more than once. It is a book I will get something out of every time I read it. I am currently about half way through. It is not a large book, or a particularly difficult read, it’s just a heavy book about a heavy subject – Death & dying and learning to face it and accept it, because it is natural and happens to all of us and why do we live our lives ignoring it when maybe, just maybe by accepting it we could learn to actually live our lives.
And there it is. My blog post for today.
I will leave you with a song that stirs my heart – I have shared it before, and I am sure that I will share it again…